Fat stuff

You know, fat culture and fat people told me that if I lost weight, people would treat me differently. That if I lost weight, everyone would be nicer to me, and I would get much better treatment from everyone, friends and strangers alike. Ever since I hemorrhaged for months and months, when my intestines completely shut down and I thereby lost weight, I have found that the only people who treat me any differently are some fatter women, who project their own insecurities and anger onto me.

TBH most people treat me exactly the same as they did before: people were mostly nice to me before, and they're mostly nice to me now.

I was so surprised. But also relieved, you know? Because of course it would hurt to find out that people I cared for were secretly judging me for being fat.

But it also makes me wonder, if all these fat people who say that people are rude to them or dislike them for being fat, are just assuming that when in fact it's because they're miserable fucking people.  Maybe they are the ones who are unpleasant. Because some of them say things like that they get death threats and messages telling them to kill themselves every day just for being fat in public, or for being openly fat on the internet, and that shit has NEVER happened to me. I've been fat in public, I've been fat on the internet. I've been posting fat selfies since I got on social media, and other people have posted pics of me being fat. I decided many years ago that I would not be ashamed of how I look, even if how I looked was fat.

Anyway, this was just some stuff on my mind.